Days 228 - 230 Just When I Thought I Had It All Under Control

Just when I thought I had life under control, my marriage issues all worked out, my parenting at its best and finest...turmoil struck. I'm sure you read my last post: Issues with parenting my teenage daughter, issues with my in-laws, and then issues with my spouse...all in the time span of 24 hours.

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I had been praying about starting up a women's mentoring program at the church, feeling pretty confident in my abilities to mentor and help a younger wife and mother. I was thanking the Lord for guiding me to this wonderful outreach, for leading me through all of the struggles I'd faced in my early years of marriage, and for bringing me to a place in my life where certain issues and battles had already been won and I could sit back and enjoy the remaining years of my parenting, and relishing in my wonderful, new marriage.

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I'm looking back at those days of struggle in my last post and thinking two things: Either Satan really, really tripped me up because he wanted me to feel inadequate about parenting and marriage skills...or God is showing me that I'm so imperfect at both that I couldn't possibly be of any help to younger wives and mothers.

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I'm leaning towards the first...but hesitant to say that with confidence. So I will continue to pray about things.

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Lord, I don't have my life under control after all, do I? Teach me through this latest experience. Help me to discover and learn from this. Help me to be a better wife and a better mother through this. Guide me and lead me down the path that You have chosen for me. I ask this in Jesus' name, Amen.