Days 176 - 178 Thy Will Be Done

There have been times in my life where I have done what I wanted to do, there have been times in my life where I've asked the Lord what I should do, and there have been times in my life where I've asked the Lord what to do and never received a clear answer...so I did what I wanted to do.

I think that's typical human nature.

I wish I could receive a clear "yes" or "no" answer from the Lord when I ask Him to guide me, when I ask that His will be done and not my own.

But I often feel as if the connection in the line between me and God is garbled or unclear...and so I just pray about something, and then go with my gut instinct.

I wonder: How can I be more in tune with God's answers to my prayers?

Especially right now, when I'm praying about whether or not to become a foster parent.

I could write out a Pros and Cons list...and remain confused.

I could pray and ask for a clear answer from God...and never get one (as usual).

So I thought that I'd post my question on this journal entry...so that it's in black and white...and hopefully, God will give me a clear "yes" or a clear "no."

God, your word calls us to take care of orphans. You have given me a heart for children. You created me to love on them, hug on them, and want to take care of them. And so I ask that You would guide me in deciding whether or not I should take this huge responsibility on. Because I fear that I am already overstretched with my time management ability...and adding another child would stretch that farther. And I fear that this broken, needy child will alter our family dynamics for the worse.

So I pray for a clear answer. In my humble, human, child-like way, I ask that if this is Your will, you will provide bunk beds so that we may have room for this child, and you will provide 3 separate people who will give me a confirmation that this is Your will for our lives.

I will trust that you can answer these prayers. In Jesus' name, Amen.