Days 57 and 58 - Still Seeking the Lord

It's been 58 days since I started to reconnect with my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...and I've made progress, although it's been a tad bit slow.

I've been discovering things about myself along the way, too...and things about my marriage. I'm slowly finding my way in these areas, as well.

Life seems to be finding a bit more balance, which I like. We are getting into more of a routine, which I really like. My husband's job is going well. He is enjoying it and is finding ways to improve the business for the owner. He is finding his groove there, and I am thankful for that.

My children seem to be more balanced emotionally now that my husband and I are more balanced and routine. Praise God for that!

My job situation still hangs in the air, but I have a sense of peace that God is in control and will guide and lead me, whatever happens; whether I end up earning too little in my official "rehire" and subsequentlyhave to move on and find something else...or whether the Judge is able to negotiate with HR and rehire me at my current rate of pay...or even whether I do something altogether different. I know that God is guiding.

I was struck by a thought this past weekend. Even though our business venture failed and we lost our shorts, God was leading. I am thankful we are back in Helena, in our Victorian home that we adore, and my older girls are back in the school system they have been a part of since Kindergarten. I can't explain why God led us there...only to fail...but I know God led us there for a reason that I probably won't understand until I reach heaven.

I am still looking for a new home church here in Helena. It seems that every church I attend has some aspect to it that either I don't like, or my husband doesn't like, or the children aren't comfortable with. So we are still searching that way, too. But my Bible is my companion, once again, and that is a good start.

Thank you, Jesus, for your plan for our lives. I pray that we will be obedient to hear your voice and follow You. Amen.